Arizona does not exist on the edge of any modern map but in my eyes it may as well have an illustrated dragon looming over the mountains. For the first time I am going off script. August no longer comes with a stack of syllabi. I am experiencing a bunch of emotions as I pack up my East Texas residence, having to acknowledge that Illinois is no longer home-base but rather a destination vacation. The realization that no matter how much my subconscious is preparing for a routine, I would be a foreign participant in this years procedures.
Finishing work in Texas becomes a little more frantic with each day. I cram as much work into a shift before I retreat home trying to compel myself to pack and clean. A part of me questions the amount of possessions I have brought with me this far. I keep reminding myself that it is only a matter of weeks before I am in a space I will call home for the next several months or perhaps, if I am lucky, the next couple years.
Before I left Peoria in May, I did not know where I would be headed following my time in Crockett. For all I knew August would see me returning to Peoria to start over from scratch. Instead, I managed to find a new adventure, in a far away land. Saturday will bring with it another thousand miles of highway and a landscape I have never experienced in person. Starting over in Flagstaff offers a fresh breath that has been long over due.
I miss Central Illinois; the people that make it a home, the places that make it comfortable, and the qualities that make it memorable. Fortunate for me the memories are portable. Flagstaff cannot replace Peoria or Fairview in their importance to me, but I have no doubts that it has the potential to find a seat next to them. There is no way I can know what Flagstaff holds in store for me and that is the sensation that I value most in this transition. I want to conquer these unknown monsters, tame this foreign place and fill it with memories that I will treasure just as much when I leave for what ever adventure follows this one.
Expect a new post when I land in Flagstaff, until then, Stay Classy.